Dear Derek,
I can't express enough -
HOW MUCH I MISS YOU ! I miss your smiling face, your eyes that light up,
your cackling laugh, your humor, your LOUD music, your love of Life, and your understanding ways of LOVE !! Not a minute
goes by that I don't think of 'YOU'.
Tonight Nov. 27 marks 3 months since I got the news
you were reported missing - it seems like yesterday. Stephanie & I (joined by friends) lit a Christmas Tree Light for
YOU - MAY YOUR LIGHT SHINE FOREVER ! It
will in our hearts !!
As much pain as I feel so very deep inside and my lack of
understanding of all of this - Please know how much YOU are LOVED !!
I wish YOU were here to mark your 20th Birthday so I could
tell you all this - remember our pact we had !?!? When you turn 21 .... all the truth comes out. I guess I'll be collecting
this from your friends - I hope they will share their stories of YOU and the MANY THINGS - 'YOU' - got up too...
Dearest Derek I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU !!
You are my 'SHINING STAR' as Stephanie has always been my
'MOON SHADOW' the names I gave you when you were born.
Stephanie & I will be marking this Birthday with our visit to Saskatoon to meet the people you knew there and to just
be there and not here.
May GOD give us strength and our DEAR Friends that are joining
us. I THANK them and I thank their FAMILIES for their support in this time of our need.
May we all have some kind of peace and understanding - if
this is possible !?!?
Derek I know you will be there with us - in our HEARTS !!
I LOVE YOU !!!
Love ALWAYS to 'YOU' my PRECIOUS SON,
Mom xoxo
